i still dont know how this hit works i mean kya karna hai kya kaha se hota hai only god knowsbut i juts need a place where i can write what i feel as apparently i cant talk about it with anyone. why the hell am i even labeling it its freaking useless as if i am going to reach double digit blogs.. or am i?
the title is totally a guess. i mean i dont know if i did it or not. but she did text a “hahah” !!! a “hahah” not a “haha” and its so huge for me. (what a loser) i know man i even asked myself out loud that what the hell is going on what the hell am i doing bus yeh cheez sort hojaye bus! i am an atheist and i even considering praying for her to come back and forgive and thing to go back to normal but idk if that is of any help. a friend of mine told me to keep hope and that the only thing i can do right now but im getting so restless about everything like ughhh.
i love driving scooty i mean it gives me a immense please and no matter what the distance i am up for it as long as im driving it. i think a lot when i drive, i overthink all the time tbh, but yeah i think when i drive and now its nothing but her. i mean what is this craziness dude. i zone out thinking oh man this oh man that and surprisingly never met with an accident i mean i am a good driver thats why but the point is she is alll oovveerr myyyy mindddd!!
thank god i started doing this else i would have gone crazy with all these thoughts in mind! man please forgive me and allow me to prove myslef.. one last opportunity to show real to show show how it feels to be loved by me i was her to be mine. i remember her texing “just a reminder youre mine” and i use to get goosebumps just by sending it to her. i love her so so much man i mean it was true when i said that after thats it for me i dont wanna look anyhwere here anywhere there! its her. i think it was always her.
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