hello there! so everything is going slow lately! i mean i wake up and then drop dad and then come back sleep wake up play fifa and the evening mein i study then at night i again play something then sleep and then repeat. easy? nah i get so much time to spare that i use my brain and when use it i dont use it in normal quantity i just use it abundance!
she texted me! samnese! my heart went 80bpm to 180 bpm. i was pounding and my hands starting shaking and but had to keep my cool. so i texted her hey and then next thing i asked her was about some restaurants as she goes here and there with her girlfriends and then she slept! i mean i dont mind her sleeping i was happy by the fact that she called me and then she sleeping when i asked her “aur bata kya chal rha hai?” when i had like ample of topics to talk on but had to set the rhythm but couldnt so its fine but what happens next makes me wanna punch the guy who is writing my story or life or whatever the fuck!
so at midnight i texted my best friend that should i call her i know she she left like 2 days ago but man i cant wait to talk to her and few mins later after texting this to my friend she dm me saying i called you and it was at 947. i checked my logs the next sec and saw at 947 exact i called one of my friend who didnt pick up tho but yeah i called. at it got clashed and i couldnt see her call or it didnt got registered at in my logs and i couldnt see it! i mean what the fuck dude i mean what are the fucking odds of this happening to me in this whole fucking planet man!!! i dont even know whats going on in her head in her life i feel so disconnected to her which is making me so uncomfortable!
today i in the afternoon i was getting bored because my studies so and i was just missing her so i thought of looking at our pictures.. again.. and then i went to whats app and thought of reading our chats.. again.. the whole 3 month period chats!
i read the jazz ball night chats and every around that day and boy oh boy.. we were the cutest couple one can ever witness. it was full of cheesiness love care romance flirting fighting and next second asking to meet calling each other just hear each others voice i mean boy my eyes were moist when i was reading i was damn THIS IS US!
i dont know if anything like this is going to happen with me again with her but i have so many thing to reply to when she indirectly said to me but my dumb lil brain couldnt figure it out that time.
i am so much in love with this girl and would do anything to keep her happy and protect her from my shitz especially but yeah i know that if this i have her i wont let me or anything come in between us because i told her.. once everything with her is set.. then that is it for me. i cant see myself with another person and i dont want to because i have seen us together and i wont like change any bit of that picture especially the girl smiling next to me.
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